Don't beat yourself up for not being able to realize who he really was from the beginning. At one time or another we all fall victim to an illusion. Stay true to who you are and what you truly want and things will fall into place.
I took myself home cos more I drank the more sad I got an I don't wanna be a dickhead I love her and I shouldn't and I don't know how to make it stop or go away its fucking killing me it's fucking me up and I don't know how to turn it off
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